issues.

I'm so jaded.

Firstly, i dont like hiding things, so to put this openly this.

WENXIN

I did not, in any sense target you in any entry.

I heard, that you do not understand why i was 'alright' in my message to you. As you put it, after what we went through, i would think you would know my objectivity is directed towards issues and not people. I do not dislike you or whatsoever. I get pissed at things, obviously, who doesnt ? Thing is, i still care for you as a friend. If i didnt, i wouldnt have even bothered to get involved with any of your problems in the first place. I sounded 'normal' because i really am concerned for you, who bothers to even message someone you dont ? I dont have much issues against you, i get tetchy when you get bitchy i admit. But what you gave me was a ambiguous answer. You told me that when i spoke up, i made things tense, when i didnt, people think i'm pissed. Thing is, maybe i am, but it's at the issue, not person. I just wanted some time out.

I recall already telling you that i am going through a crazy time now. Not just with promos but with certain external factors. I came to school today because i wanted to pass hem the earphones she said she wanted and was hoping for a chance to talk to you. But, when i arrived, you had already left.

You may say it's my fault for being late. But thing is, why i didnt confront things straight on wednesday after the paper was as i needed to collect my thoughts. Why i seemed so passive as i was walking towards the hall ? Well, this is something i do when i dont want to be too emotional. I filter stuff better that way. I find it easier to be objective as i am more detached.

If you are to ask why did i not speak to you personally now, well, ask yourself then, will you bother to listen ? I dont know. You concluded and judged me before i was given a chance to defend myself. I'm cornered. I dont really, have much of a choice now do i ?

Well, you can choose whether you want to believe me or not. I may not have clarified your issues with and against me, but that's, as far as i can recall for now. If you're willing to speak and listen, i'm willing to hear your say and answer you.